It’s never an easy term to describe how the feeling changes
as if you’re currently in a different realm than the day you’ve spent before.
Reality is, there are times you just need one thing.
Peace and silence.
Nights are my favourite time of the day. Aside working hard
in all the assignments and active whenever situation calls for it, I always
look forward for peace. To rest the body and voice, leaving out the mind to
overwhelm the soul. Recalculating and analysing the events that happens
previously. Images, voices, everything
comes back to life –as if they want you to understand whatever you do has either
been right or likewise.
Sometimes whenever I go out in the city, I let myself urge
to refuse using Google map or guidelines to return back home. There was a time
I connected the car with my songs, lock the door and drive out from Suria’s
parking basement to go out, randomly choosing either 4 streets and drive home.
You see, I have no idea where I was leading myself to. But
if you’re in the middle of the city, there’s nothing you should worry about.
You’ll find yourself on the right track in no time.
The aim wasn’t to get home, but rather to enjoy the city
lights.
Looking at foreigners
snapping pictures along the way, people busy with their own conversations on
the phone with their loved ones, the illusions created by the string of
colourful lights hanging on the trees, the dimmed orange light transpiring the
streets from the street lamps.
Night driving is
always the best in search of serenity.
Even when you’re interested in adventures, there are times
you just want some time alone. Enjoying the time spent on you yourself rather
than with people. No human contact. Just you. Also, it’s not about locking
yourself in the room and do nothing, but rather to have activities done. Like
drawing listening to your favourite hits, keeping your phone on busy mode,
watching a show alone, peeking out at the fireworks covering the black night
sky to such a decorative pattern, late night drives.
Because the idea of the night is peace. Just sit alone by
the corner looking at the city lights, it’s not about how you admire the
lights. You just find that peace to finally think. Think anything without
hesitation. Reflecting your acts, finding inner peace to your problems,
rekindling back the love people cherished on you.
I remembered when my parents had bought a Volvo right after I was born. Since the day I was considered as a toddler, I'd lay myself on the back seat looking at the car ceiling.
Especially when it's night, I'd crawl up with my little feet to the corner of the child-locked door to hold the cold car window on the right, shifting my eyes looking outside when there wasn't anything else but the street lights above my head. I find it so calm to be seeing those yellowish emotional lay-back situation of the road. Ever since I was little, I always loved the idea of those yellow lights beaming the roads. (Even once got mad when they had it changed to white lights)
Those yellow beam lights of the streets has always made me feel safe in an unpredictable way of translating to direct words.
I remembered when my parents had bought a Volvo right after I was born. Since the day I was considered as a toddler, I'd lay myself on the back seat looking at the car ceiling.
Especially when it's night, I'd crawl up with my little feet to the corner of the child-locked door to hold the cold car window on the right, shifting my eyes looking outside when there wasn't anything else but the street lights above my head. I find it so calm to be seeing those yellowish emotional lay-back situation of the road. Ever since I was little, I always loved the idea of those yellow lights beaming the roads. (Even once got mad when they had it changed to white lights)
Those yellow beam lights of the streets has always made me feel safe in an unpredictable way of translating to direct words.
You don’t need to be an introvert to do this. You can be the
most talkative person in class and still expect to want some time for yourself
instead of pleasing others or taking serious on your assignments.
It’s beautiful to just loosen your tension that way with the
help of your prayers without being seen by others.
If you want to appreciate life, it’s not a matter of how
many people can see how much your happiness seems to overwhelm you, but rather
to live your life to the fullest, lifting up your talents to the maximum,
loving everyone who are there for you and always be that person people would love
to greet randomly.
I learned that out-going people are sometimes the loneliest.
You have a lot of people enjoying your presence or whatever you speak out, but
there are times you just need time for yourself.
The only reason why the night and city lights seems very
pleasuring. And despite having friends all over Malaysia who sometimes never
lived in the cities themselves, I always thank my parents on raising me up
here. People always define and make expandable reasons, saying cities are so
dusty, busy, complex and full of violence, but if you look closely at night,
the city is quiet. You just need to see it right.
You’re alone facing this big world anyway. You’ll also die
alone with no companionship. Let the night fill you with that unexplainable
peace and allow your body to finally reconnect with your mind, giving you your
own solutions to life.
Cause’ no matter how active you are in everything, peace is
essential to please the soul.
"There are times when and places where and even people who silence is just perfect with. It's comfortable, it's calming, and almost better than a conversation. No words are needed in the moment, the moment is all you need, And that's beautiful"
