There are times when the diversity between whatever that
holds yourself with others are hard. It’s some conceptual time where reality is
no one is happy with themselves.
Have you ever felt this difference in yourself?
That difference of realizing that you’ve reached this level
in life that you are simply aware of what your actions lead you. You just know
what are you doing and why you did or how did you start having it involved in
your life.
That’s maturity.
Sometimes when you recall back those times when you were
younger –how you never had a clue on why you studied in the first place, how
your excitement on having that new toy drifted off without considering your
parent’s agreement, how you blindly went to boarding school with zero intention
of succeeding, how you fell for the wrong guy etc.
It just happens, and little did you knew, it was considered
as a delusional self-proclaim act –under your awareness. Life happens just like
that. You don’t realize the sense of your own acts –how would you know right?
But despite those continuous levels of failures,
experiences, happiness, memories, it will hit you hard on the face. It’ll make
you ponder on those insights of what triggered you in the first place.
And hard it is to explain, it just, happens.
Due to the ‘it just, happens’ theory, (my self-called term,
don’t make it your own reference in formal use in essays), that explains
everything on how you react to it.
Suppose to say you’re in an exam, and you’re selecting the
right possible way to perform the best results, in the end, you didn’t succeed
to attain the strived marks you’ve implemented in your mind.
The teacher looks at your paper, exchange his glance to your
face with the others, heads down with your paper, he lays it down to save it
last –in hope you’ll realize you scored the worst. We students all know that it’s
bad luck when you’re the last. In fact, it’s shameful cause’ basically everyone
else in class is aware of it as well.
You either do these two things. You cry or get damn
frustrated and tend to make that obvious gesture on the face. Or;
You’re truly depressed inside but you know that it’s much of
what you’ve done and is the most that you can achieve so far. Why? You reflect
back, right from the start.
You reflect from the start, you have this intellectual
ignition that if you don’t study, you’ll never have time to perform in your
revise periods –be it anytime. You’ll sit down wondering if this act –act of
wanting to waste those precious times with sleeping or etc rather than
studying. So when you do, you won’t cry or show obvious frustration. Instead,
you’ll simply look at it, get that sense of making amends on your mistake –because
you deserved it.
You deserve whatever negativity you’ll get in the future
because you were conscious enough to accept it from the start.
Similar to dealing with people around you, besides family,
you can just get anyone out of your life whenever and however you like it.
No, life isn’t too specific to be having people chosen to be
in your lives under your own awareness because God has clearly bumped you with
people on purpose. You don’t get to
choose who are your classmates, your roommates, your homeroom members, your
lecturers, your business partner, or your country’s prime minister (lol).
Reality is, it’s not a matter of who you see in your
everyday life that means they are involved in your life –but it’s who you
accept them to be your life. To them in the beginning you’re just someone they
see presence in their sight, therefore they draw themselves closer to you.
Once they do, you have the act of having this self-talk to
yourself if they bring positivity or negativity once they enter your personal
or rather to say, the extent level of closeness you can be with someone depending
on their adaption with our character.
That’s when we can explain how best friends, strangers etc
can be applied on this mind thinking reality.
If you aren’t aware of who you choose to be involved in your
personal life, then it’s going to be a problem when something unexpected comes.
If you are aware, you will realize that not all people will
stay in your life to a long extent of time. They could leave you anytime they
please. We’re not to discuss why, but in general there are just so many
possibilities that either of us can make it down to a few specific reasons for
better understanding.
Awareness of your acts and acceptance of people in your
life, it’s maturity.
Because similar to the exam, you knew from the start you
didn’t intend to study hard, and therefore you already accept the fact that you
might never be the best in class. You knew you deserved it. People in life that
slowly drifts themselves away from you, if you love them but are unaware of how
they affect you when they drew close to you, it’ll cause you to be tragically
under a bad state be it depression, heart break, complete sadness or unwilling to
cooperate bearing the pain.
But once you are matured with whatever that comes and goes
in life, you won’t be upset anymore. You won’t cry in the room alone or become
terribly weak like you used to or do such acts that self-harms you. You know at some point, some things and
people will hurt you anyway.
So one day if they do, you’ll just smile because it was also
due to your own acts of provoking such trust towards something that is under
God’s willing or humans. Humans change, you change too. Today you might be a
bad person but you will be the most innocent person alive after repenting.
Aha, but you might also hurt people in the future.
Who knows? But when you are conscious enough of what you do
today, try your best to never change to the worse. Always increase that level
of self-improvements according to your strength.
In the meanwhile, understand the maturity is everything in
acts as well as showing how you’ll react in the end.
Life is boring and dull if you never want to get out of the
safe zone –like not wanting to be involved with people because you know they
might change leaving you or never wanting to go for a course that is seemingly
looked down due to people expecting high ambitions from you when you know you’ll
be successful with it anyway.
Therefore, listen, you’ll never have that life where there
are no frustrations at all. If you live your life learning how to avoid
failures or negativity then you’re not worthy of having a life at all.
Learn to take chances, get over your fobias for the first
time (but still I can’t bear the thought of myself riding a roller coaster
yet). Be happy with what you have today and don’t bother wasting time thinking
what if it gets to your nightmare.
That’s why maturity implements everything in you, adapting
with whatever situations that leaves you dreaded. No one is immune to sadness,
no one is too strong to bear such difficulties, but know this, with maturity,
you’ll only be sad for a very short period of time.
Alas, when something goes the wrong way, you’ll just have a
broader mind with a new aim in the future.
