They're loads of quotes regarding to friendships. Typical ones which in reality are true but barely happens. To be honest I feel lucky to have such beautiful friends. Not due to physical aspects but mentality. But among all of them whom I've encountered, there is one person who, of course would be classified as one of my forever-will-be friends is a bit different. No, she's perfectly fine. It's just that there's just something that's bothering us to be what we should be as best friends. Our personalities.
Syaheerah, reluctantly enjoying the life of a toddler in Penang Island.
yeah, the writer herself does it as well.
Referring back to what I've said that what differs us is our personalities, this automatically indicates that none of us are the fault regarding to what had might caused the distance. Some perceptions based on a few people, they'll just assume if the relationship between two humans is no longer looking as if it is attachable, they should just move on and leave. True, but on this case, totally doubt it man. The thing is, all the sudden there's this kinda silence -which I am sure is killing her as well. And the silence is severe, even if we have a conversation. Again, no one is the fault which confuses me on assuming how it could ever happen.
Whatever it is, what has happened, how we feel, how a letter seemed to not change a thing, I just want you to know you're involvement in the piece of chunk of my life has truly changed a part of me.
This special friend I am referring to is indeed a different but yet the most valuable friend I have ever had. Why is that so? Because even if I had such amazing best pals, none of them literally changes my personality. My confidence level. My bravery and contentment. They make me mold myself on being the person I have shaped myself. They didn't manage to lessen my nervousness, my weakness. But you did Syaheerah, you did. And I'd like to show my appreciation on you for that. It'd be a pleasure to give you a round of applause.
I have made numerous times of personality tests, even read personality books like Quiet, Connected and How to control anger. The greatest weakness -which I would never deny to be my failure on developing the greatness within myself is "to be assertive about my personal needs". Informally you have showed me the aspects of being firm on our thoughts and standards. To not fall easily or get kicked down by people who look down on me. To be brave on saying my perceptions out loud with confidence. To accept the circumstances. To be strong. You have those characteristics naturally in yourself. And yet so strong it effects me to change. By conclusion, you have made a large, priceless contribution to me.
Just want you to know, whatever happens, no matter how seldom we have a conversation, I've always cared about you. No second thoughts on that. True, I've been insensitive to you -even I question why is that so. And I bet you seem to feel the same way. We'd make a perfect match. When you mentioned how I didn't seem to want your concern during the time when they had the results for Global Leadership in Balik Pulau, it has nothing to do with conspiracies. We're going to have reunion on G-Lantern, and I'll try to make amends. I won't waste our friendship for nothing. You're as important as the others. Besides, I always all ears to your problems. Maybe I guess I'm not the one fit for the confessions to your sadness. Doesn't matter.
There's so much to say, to define, to express but this is wayy to public. I don't write an entry specially to an individual, FYI. so, in case if I did, that person must be freakin' special. Just so you know :)
